Missing my confidants....

You remember those times in your life when you had your best friends? Then you all grew up and went on your separate ways...

Yes... story of my life.

I was so fortunate to find some amazing friends in college. We didn't all go to school together, and in fact the 3 I'm thinking of probably were only in the same room together a few times. I find myself missing our times together. I didn't realize how much I needed each of them, until I didn't really have them any more. It took me so long to find friends like them, I suppose I took advantage of how amazing they were.

Do you have friends like those?

I find myself lonely, like sad, cry yourself to sleep lonely. And you say "well don't you have an amazing husband, and son?" Well as a matter of fact I do. My husband is the best. The most caring, loyal, trustworthy, Godly, compassionate, handsome man I could possibly ask for. We have the most incredible baby boy. They are my world. But I still find myself longing for the companionship I had with my "girls" back in the day.

Here they stood with me as I married my husband! I got to stand by one as she got married, and I look forward to (hopefully) being a part of special days in their lives, however, and whenever, they come.

So to my friends, though we are far apart, thank you. Thank you for simply being my friend. Know from the little town I reside I think of you often, pray for you daily, and will forever be thankful of the years we got to spend together.

So to those reading this...don't take your friends for granted. Time does change us, and we do grow up and move on, but those few friends that we are blessed to have in our lives leave a mark on your heart. Be blessed you had them! I know I certainly was.

I find that as we grow older, making friends become increasingly difficult. I'm a different person than I was in high school (thank goodness), and college (again..thank goodness). I have less time, a husband, a baby, a full time job, animals to care for.

Perhaps God teaching me to find comfort in Him, to be okay with just me and Jesus. I'm trying to find my place as an adult in this big ole' world, and hopefully one day I will. So if you ever find yourself feeling alone, know you aren't the only one who feels that way! The sun will rise in the morning, and another day will dawn. I know that in many corners of the country, I do have people I can call my friends!

Until we meet again..

The joys of life...

Man how life has changed in the past year.... I tried to blog consistantly through out my pregnancy, but due to the fact that I was throwing up an average of 15 times a day, I just couldn't keep up :) But that's okay.. Look what God gave me!

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Isn't he adorable??? I mean seriously! It is hard to believe that his 1st birthday is fast approaching. My little baby, isn't so very little. He is independent, loud, precious, thoughtful, inquisitive, bright, and that laugh melts my heart. He has finally gotten to a point where he hugs and kisses us, and that melts what little of my heart is left un-melted. He can FINALLY say mama, and let me tell you, after hearing months of da-da, I was ready for it! He love Christopher, and boy does Christopher love him. It is a bond that I look forward to watch grow over the years. We talk to Isaiah about Jesus, we read him bible stories (along with the cat and the hat and some really crazy counting book "grammy" bought him) we sing songs to him about the Lord. We want him to learn and love the freedom we have through Christ. It's funny how lives change. He has made us completely change ourselves to meet his needs. He is perfect, but his bedtime is priority over staying out late, hanging with friends, or even going to dinner sometimes. Instead of enjoying a good meal, I am thinking "what can Isaiah eat?" And I LOVE IT. I have never felt more complete in my life. Now if I could just buy that horse farm... My little Halloween child is my trick and my treat sometimes, my little pumpkin, our greatest blessing. I am so glad God picked us to be his parents...I couldn't have asked for a more perfect baby! There is no more waiting, he is here and he is ours. My boys are the joys of my life!